Hay creammee..
It’s been a long time.. We never meet, talk or just say hi’. It is also happen to my black daily life, it is almost 6 months and I never contact him or say hi’ to him. At first we met, when we shaked our hands, I should realize that this feeling wouldn’t stay forever or at least until he’s back to Indo. I have the blue December last year, you know because of him. I really love him, until I want to leave “W” just because want to be with him. That’s so ridiculous! Winter Break! I really hate it.. I was waiting him, I really wanted to made a video call with him, I wanted to keep in touch with him. And the terrible things happened, he flight to Atlanta to met the Girl who I’m pretty sure that he really admire. He explored Atlanta with her, it war made my heart broken until pieces, a torment, a torture, a blow straight to my heart. And the worst about it, I couldn’t told anyone about my felt.
I don’t know, who is the cruelest among us? Me? Him?
Before it happened, he updated on Path about the music that his listened to. It was about the reality, the reality that we couldn’t together. It just impossible to retain the very long loong looong distance realationship, 10000 miles, 11-12 different hours. It will make us sick and insane. But he never told me!
I’m so desperate..
I really want to apply the scholarship because of him, I want to explore more about the world with him, but it’s vanished..
I want to meet him again, in the future.. can I? AA